purpose

I went back to the gym today after a month long hiatus (kids were sick, my back went out, my mom was here, blah blah blah). I ran/walked 2.5 miles on the treadmill and the endorphins definitely kicked in. My soul and my body are very happy right now.

I’ve listened to Cloud Cult’s Meaning of 8 Album a hundred times, yet never noticed this song before. It became my soundtrack this morning as I hit the replay button over an over.

Purpose
There must be purpose here, cuz most of us keep waking up.
(Don’t you think it’s pretty here).
It’s so unexpectedly predictable, so sloppily intentional.
Does anyone know the punch-line yet?

There must be rhythm here, cuz all of us have a heartbeat.
(Don’t you see the music here).
Inside our ribs we tick an average of 60 beats a minute–
A-rum-pum-pum-pum——–
A-rum-pum-pum-pum-pum——–

There must be forgiveness here, cuz most of us have our weaknesses.
(Tell me what are your weaknesses).
I don’t know myself, and I’m afraid of you.
I’m happiest on chemicals.
The goings come and the comings go.
Forgive me I’m just an animal.

There must be healing here, cuz everybody here has been damaged.
And we’ll wear it like a tattoo, every scar is a smile.
To hell with the going down

There must be afterlife here, cuz we all pray for resurrection.
You see, the end comes quick as a bullet.

You can listen to it here: click on track ten, Purpose.

Music can be tricky. Sometimes it’s the aura of the song that speaks to me, sometimes the lyrics. Often times it’s both, and what I get from it is nothing at all what the writer intended.

Today I think I felt peace as I listened – peace that The Light penetrates the soul of those we love, even when they won’t or can’t listen to our words.

Hand Jive

We just got back from the Gymnastics studio where we threw a joint birthday party for Thomas and Ruthie. (Which is THE way to do winter birthdays, by the way. I walked in with my pizzas and walked out with my brain intact).

Bryan continued the party at home by putting on a Daft Punk album for our own little family dance party. It reminded me of this video of one of its songs, and how totally awesome it is, and how I meant to post this a long time ago.

To all the moms…

Heard this great essay on NPR last night about the bedroom secrets of the suburban Dad rivaling those of their single counterparts. It’s a funny read, but even funnier if you can listen to it. Here’s an excerpt:

You think it’s hard to get the attention of a woman in a bar? Puh-leeze.

These guys have to convince a woman who has fallen asleep in her clothes reading Thomas the Tank Engine stories that what she really wants right now is some midnight romance under the giant pile of laundry covering the master bed.

So, so funny, and so, so true. To read (or listen) the rest, click here.

Does this clutter make my butt look fat?

clutter book cover.JPGI saw a commercial for Oprah the other day about the connection between the clutter in your home and the clutter on your ass. Well, they didn’t quite put it that way, but you get the idea. The author’s name is Peter Walsh, and his book really is titled, Does This Clutter Make My Butt Look Fat?

I didn’t watch the show, but the idea really does make sense. I don’t see it as an IF/THEN statement, as in IF you have clutter THEN you will be fat. I see it more as the clutter mindset of laziness, taking shortcuts, and not following through. Here is a quote from the show’s article on Oprah’s website:

“Your head, your heart, your hips and your house are all interconnected, and I really believe that,” he says.

I’ve been kicking around these two verses in connection with an essay I’m working on about my own selfishness hindering my ability to Get Things Done and take care of my family:

For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice (James 3:16).

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life (Proverbs 4:23).

It reinforces my theme for the year of maintenance, though I want to see more than mere behavioral change. I want to see heart change. I want to desire new things. I want the changes in my life to be a symptom of transformation, not merely a result of strong willpower.

Changes are happening, but they are happening slowly. I think I’m okay with this. I feel as if I’m tackling the mess in my mind along with the mess in my house. I’m making changes and establishing new routines, but I’m doing it because I desire to do it, not because I’m supposed to do it.

So far I have not desired to change my eating habits. This would be a nice addition to the New Jen, but frankly I’m still comfort eating. I do, however, desire to exercise, so Jen is maintaining status quo on the scale (though all my pants mysteriously require belts, now, to keep them on).

I’m okay with this for the time being because I am seeing progress in other areas. I am experience a renewal of my mind, and I’m finding joy in the changes that are happening. I have faith my eating habits will change in time.

Thanks to Red Letter Girl for the reminder of the Oprah show!

I swear, this is exactly how the conversation went.

Ruthie: Look, Mom, I HAVE GUM?

Me: Uh, where did you get that?

Ruthie (shrugs shoulders): I don’t know.

Me: No really, where did you get that.

Ruthie: I don’t know!

Me: Ruthie, you need to tell me the truth.

Ruthie: Off the floor.

Me: OFF THE FLOOR? YOU PICKED USED GUM OFF THE FLOOR AND PUT IT IN YOUR MOUTH??

Ruthie: No.

(Look of relief on my face).

Ruthie (with dramatic hand motions to illustrate): I picked the hair off it first.

FINALLY, someone is meaner than I am.

CNN Reports an ad placed in a local Des Moines, IA newspaper by the mom of a 19-year-old who sold his car when she found alcohol in it:

The ad reads: “OLDS 1999 Intrigue. Totally uncool parents who obviously don’t love teenage son, selling his car. Only driven for three weeks before snoopy mom who needs to get a life found booze under front seat. $3,700/offer. Call meanest mom on the planet.”

I can only hope that I am THAT COOL of a parent.

Full story here.

Thanks to Mommy-Come-Lately for the link!

Seems to be a theme among the peeps I know…

Beware of anything that competes with loyalty to Jesus Christ. The greatest competitor of devotion to Jesus is service for Him….The one aim of the call of God is the satisfaction of God, not a call to do something for Him. We are not sent to battle for God, but to be used by God in His battlings. Are we being more devoted to service than to Jesus Christ?

Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest, January 18th.

BaioWulf

A Twitter from Mommy4Cocktails indicated she may or may not be meeting Scott Baio. This led me to a Google search to find out what that hottie has been up to (Baio, not Mommy. I know far too much about her). Which led me to BaioWatch (obviously, people with more time to spare than me). Which led me to BaioWulf.

Which led me to believe I should have gone to bed twenty minutes ago.

But please…. tell me you laughed as hard as me at this:

Things I never noticed about Rudolf the Red Nosed Reindeer as a kid:

Rudolph Hermie blog.jpg1. Santa runs a racist sweatshop based on the recruiting style of the KKK.

2. Searching for lost little reindeer is “man’s work.”

3. Hermie’s expressed wish to be a dentist is a metaphor for coming out of the closet.

4. Yukon Cornelius needs a woman.

5. The way Mrs. Claus keeps stuffing Santa with food, he’s going to be dead from hypertension, high cholesterol, or diabetes before next year.

For my blogging friends who also like to read books

Here’s a fun site called Booking Through Thursday. A question is asked, and you answer it on your website with links all around. I like this idea for those times when I’m feeling blocked and burned out, but I still want to write for the discipline of it.

Thanks to Writing and Living for the link!

Another Great Rack to Check Out

I have amassed quite a t-shirt collection lately. I’d like to call it a hobby, but I dare say it’s becoming an obsession. I’m a junkie with a dealer who occasionally sends me “samples,” but I really just think she’s trying to feed my addiction so I am completely dependent on her.

I will show you some of the latest in my collection soon, but for now, check out these great t-shirts. Wouldn’t you Go Crazy at Home Moms just love to have one of these?

Worship in the Church: traditional or contemporary?

Staying home from church with Thomas this morning to avoid spreading the croup, I heard this interesting story on NPR’s weekend edition about the Southern Baptist Conference updating its hymnal with hundreds of contemporary praise songs written by famous recording artists like Michael W. Smith and Matt Redman.

Behind the scenes here at This Pile I’ve been thinking and writing about community, mission, and cultural relevance, so I found this story very timely to that train of thought. The SBC stipulates that including contemporary music in their hymnals will make them more relevant to young people, and will help draw new people into church.

But certain old-timers disagree.

An elderly woman interviewed – an arthritic piano player in a small church whose favorite hymn is The Old Rugged Cross – expresses her frustration with the watered down nature of most praise music, feeling that it doesn’t really say anything. She says the newer songs sing “praise the Lord, praise the Lord, praise the Lord” over and over again, but she prefers the tried and true hymns because they tell a story.

T.W. Hunt, retired pastor and a member of the committee charged with approving new songs into the hymnal, agrees. He believes the contemporary worship songs don’t necessarily contradict good theology, they just don’t say much of anything at all. “I love the old hymns, because I think they are very good on theology. ‘My hope is built on nothing less than Jesus’ blood and righteousness…’ That’s pretty good theology.”

It appears that cultural relevance is being pitted against good story telling and strong theology. So I wonder myself, is today’s church raising up shallow Christians as a result of creating a more appealing church experience? I worry that American pastors and worship leaders place the fear of man before the fear of God by catering to what they think people want to hear. Sure, more people will likely enter the doors of a church if their current world views are not too harshly challenged, but is the goal to fill churches with bodies or to fill churches with Christ followers?

I thought it was a very interesting and balanced story about the debate in the church today over how to reach new generations with the Gospel. I personally think there is value in being relevant to the culture, but not at the cost of diminishing the power of story and good theology. As more contemporary churches write new music, I would hope they would retain a solid theology and steer clear of emotional repetition and swelling music.

Sadly, I don’t think this is always the case.

Any thoughts?