Posted in Grieving, Thomas on Sep 11th, 2011 No Comments »
Me in New York, July 2000 This morning the kids and I watched videos of the planes hitting the two towers, and videos of the towers coming down. We talked about what happened on this day ten years ago, why it was so confusing and scary, and what Bryan and I were doing when we [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Grieving, Living In Community, Soundrack on Jun 8th, 2011 1 Comment »
“Maybe we’re not meant to be together.” “He said he never loved me.” “He told me he wants a divorce.” “I can’t keep letting him treat me that way.” “I don’t see how reconciliation is possible.” “It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done.” “I can’t stop crying.” These are soundbites from some of the conversations [...]
Posted in Grieving on Apr 22nd, 2011 No Comments »
I’m feeling morose today. Death tends to draw that out, and later I will be attending a funeral. I wish I could say I was attending the funeral of someone who would miraculously return from the dead three days later, but I’m not. I will be attending the funeral of someone who will most certainly [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving on Oct 12th, 2009 2 Comments »
I woke up Sunday morning to a 59 degree house – the coldest it’s been since the seasons changed – so I finally decided to turn on the furnace. What used to be a simple flip of the switch is now a ceremony of sorts – I pause to remember, acknowledge, sometimes shed a tear. [...]
Posted in Grieving on Feb 9th, 2009 4 Comments »
I don’t think it’s a coincidence I’m reading through the book of Job during a time when we find ourselves without steady income – it lends itself to having clear perspective on what we do have. We are healthy. Our children are adorable and well adjusted. We are wealthy in our friends. It’s a funny [...]
Posted in Grieving on Dec 1st, 2008 3 Comments »
I grew up around death. My father has a degree in Mortuary Science, and for many years when I was little he worked in a funeral home setting, counseling families and helping them prepare the services for their passed loved ones. I saw the basement rooms full of flowers – tables spread with various stems, [...]
Posted in Grieving on Nov 24th, 2008 9 Comments »
Scout, Sept 11, 2002 – Nov 24, 2008 We lost our dog, Scout, tonight. She passed away peacefully around 6pm, just after Bryan came home from work. He walked in the door, she smiled and wagged her tail a little at him, and then a few minutes later she was gone – as if she [...]
Posted in Grieving, Seen, Heard, Said on Oct 23rd, 2007 No Comments »
In a recent interview on KUOW’s Sound Focus, music writer Michael Azzerad reflected on his memories of friend, Kurt Cobain. His interview tapes with Cobain are the basis for the documentary, Kurt Cobain: About a Son. Michael was so devastated by Cobain’s death, that he didn’t listen to these tapes for almost ten years after [...]
Posted in Grieving on Oct 18th, 2007 1 Comment »
I am gathering those I love close to my heart this week. The fall brings memories of loss, and the appreciation of life – and the Seattle clouds and rain have swept in for the next nine months, deepening those feelings of solitude. A close relative of my mother’s recently passed on, my cousin’s teenage [...]
Posted in Grieving, Living In Community on Jun 18th, 2007 2 Comments »
I’m feeling weepy this morning, with a lump in my throat that is ready to burst into emotion at the first sign of lowered defenses. Perhaps I am hormonal this week, but on this Monday morning – the first time I have slowed down enough to process since returning from Minnesota – there is much [...]
Posted in Grieving on Jan 9th, 2007 No Comments »
Today is my afternoon at The Met, drinking wine and eating goat cheese with toasted bread. I normally spend this time writing, and usually get 3-4 posts done, but I’m still not ‘feeling the love’ in that department. I’ve spent my time reading blogs, IM’ing Bryan, and generally just goofing around on the internet. It’s [...]
Posted in Grieving on Jan 5th, 2007 5 Comments »
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving on Jan 3rd, 2007 No Comments »
Today is the second anniversary of Gordy’s death from cancer. I have to be honest – and I feel a certain sense of betrayal to say this – but the grieving does get easier over time. I think I worried that if it ever quit being REALLY hard to think about Gordy, that I was [...]
Posted in Grieving on Dec 21st, 2006 No Comments »
Without this man, I have no idea what kind of person I would be today. What I do know is that I would not be anywhere near as successful in life, anywhere near as loving or accepting of love, or anywhere near as happy. -Andru Edwards I was moved this morning when I heard (through [...]
Posted in Grieving, Picture Book on Sep 11th, 2006 No Comments »
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