Posted in Comfort & Control, Rage Against The Pile on Dec 29th, 2008 No Comments »
“From that time many of His disciples went back, and walked no more with him.” John 6:66
When God gives a vision by His Spirit through His word of what He wants, and your mind and soul thrill to it, if you do not walk in the light of that vision, you will sink into servitude [...]
Posted in Everyday, Learning, Rage Against The Pile on Dec 13th, 2008 1 Comment »
Over the last couple years I’ve learned what circumstances trigger my rage episodes, and they are as follows:
Low blood sugar - If I go too long without eating, or if I eat all the wrong things, watch out! When my blood sugar gets low I feel frantic, anxious, on edge, and my patience is on [...]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile, Ruthie on Dec 2nd, 2008 1 Comment »
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8).
This is a pretty foundational concept in the Zug Haus, though some of us (…ahem…) don’t always execute it gracefully. As Believers we give grace because we have been given grace - though [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Rage Against The Pile, Ruthie on Nov 3rd, 2008 2 Comments »
Reconciling with children is much different than with adults. When Bryan and I get into a fight, it often takes several long conversations to cover all the rabbit trails of baggage that manifested itself in the actual fought upon issue.
I get to explain my feelings. I get to lay down the foundation of how I [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Depression, Rage Against The Pile on Jun 13th, 2008 5 Comments »
A year or more ago, I was talking with a friend about how I had taken to self medicating my visits to Funkytown with alcohol. I know that sounds bad, but hear me out. After Thomas was born, which was two months after losing Gordy to cancer, I experienced postpartum depression that was severe [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Depression, Rage Against The Pile on Feb 20th, 2008 3 Comments »
I’ve had a really shitty couple of days. I wake up cranky, I drink too much coffee, my house is a disaster, I yell at my kids, and I’m behind on everything.
Shitty.
And I can’t say that I have any circumstances to blame this on. Yes, Bryan has been working a lot, and yes, we [...]
Posted in Piling It On (and taking it off), Rage Against The Pile on Oct 12th, 2007 1 Comment »
Wow. Who knew? I am completely addicted to working out. I was talking to a friend last night about all the exercising I’ve been doing, and how my whole new daily routine has been fantastic, and how I’m actually accomplishing MORE even though I added an hour and a half to my day by [...]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile on Oct 8th, 2007 No Comments »
Day One of new Staying On Track Schedule is complete, and I’m tuckered out. I was productive, I was not swayed by distractions, and it was kind of nice to move through the day with purpose: make grocery list, work out, fill crock pot with dinner, go to grocery store, scream immaturely at my [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Rage Against The Pile on Sep 5th, 2007 No Comments »
I’ve been thinking a lot about the issue of habitual sin. We all have sinned, and we all will continue to sin until we are perfect in death with Christ. But we also have a responsibility to turn from our sin, to repent, and to stop doing it.
So what to make of these habitual [...]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile, Ruthie on Sep 5th, 2007 1 Comment »
I just gave Ruthie a time out for ignoring me (a frequent happening in our relationship). After her time out, when I spoke to her about what she’d done, she seemed flippant and more concerned about getting back to Dora than she was about repenting and telling me she is sorry.
So I sent her [...]
Posted in Learning, Rage Against The Pile, Until Death Do Us Part (and to the Death it will be) on Apr 24th, 2007 3 Comments »
I have flown in a lot of airplanes in my life as my family has always been scattered around the country, and this particular instruction regarding the oxygen masks always confused me. For some reason I always thought it made more sense to help the person next to you first. Aside from the fact [...]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile on Apr 2nd, 2007 1 Comment »
Bryan has slowly been making the switch in our household from PC’s to Macs, and my laptop PC was one of the last to be switched over. He finally ordered me a new one last week, and spent time this weekend setting it up for me. I’m excited about it, and love all [...]
Posted in Learning, Rage Against The Pile, Ruthie on Mar 16th, 2007 5 Comments »
There are days when Ruthie teaches me many things. Like the days when she pretends to mother her purple teddy bear - feeding it, wrapping it in a blanket to sleep… and disciplining it. I often find her setting the bear in a nearby chair, cheerfully explaining to it the reasons for a time [...]
Posted in On Writing, Rage Against The Pile on Mar 13th, 2007 5 Comments »
My babysitter is sick today (poor thing, she’s fighting something ugly), so I am without my afternoon of writing. I hate how this makes me feel, and I’m still trying to figure out how to deal with lost expectations. I’ve had many meaty things in my head this week, and I was really looking [...]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile on Feb 28th, 2007 2 Comments »
This morning I ate my breakfast while locked in the bathroom because Ruthie would not stop bugging me about giving her a bite of my eggs. I kept asking her in a calm way to please back away (she was literally in my face, hovering over my plate, with her fork touching my food), [...]
