Posted in Friendship, Grieving, Learning, Zoe on Jul 4th, 2006 1 Comment »
Zoe was born on Sunday, a day earlier than expected. This brought the drama of a little panic and rushing, but in some ways I think this was better than the anxiety of waiting. She came into this world as healthy and as strong as our wishes and prayers had hoped for, needing no assistance [...]
Posted in Grieving, Rage Against The Pile, Things on Jun 10th, 2006 1 Comment »
It’s after 1am and I can’t sleep. I have too many pictures swirling in my mind. Too many worries. Aspartame in my diet soda. Hormones in my milk. The way my daughter’s face looks when she’s crying. The last sentence of a medical update letter my friend wrote: “We are nearing the beginning.” I feel [...]
Posted in Family, Grieving, Learning on Feb 25th, 2006 1 Comment »
This morning my mom left Minnesota for a month in sunny Arizona (oh, to be retired), and I called her last night to see how the packing was going. After chatting for awhile I said, “Well, I should let you get back to your packing.” But as usual, the conversation continued for another ten minutes. [...]
Posted in Grieving on Dec 16th, 2005 No Comments »
Please continue to pray for the Pearson family — this morning was Hannah’s memorial service. You can read about it here. I don’t think her sister Bethany even knows she is gone because she has remained unconscious since last week. So much sadness.
Posted in Family, Getting Things Done, Grieving, Things on Dec 13th, 2005 No Comments »
I just finished addressing all my Christmas cards. This year I went low maintenance and BOUGHT cards, rather than made them. Life is too short to be Martha Stewart. It was sad coming to mom’s card, after having addressed envelopes to The Smith Family, or Mr. & Mrs. Smith. I didn’t know how to address [...]
Posted in Family, Grieving on Dec 11th, 2005 1 Comment »
Last year around this time I experienced the loss of a loved one after his battle with cancer. I had time to prepare for this loss, to say my goodbyes. This weekend my family experienced another loss. This time there was no warning, and I am reminded of how quickly everything about this life can [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving on Nov 5th, 2005 No Comments »
At precisely 5:30pm on Thursday afternoon, on the eve of a three-day holiday weekend in which all things were closed the next day, our furnace began making a screeching grinding sound that echoed in the vents throughout the house. As Bryan and I stood in the kitchen assessing the nature of the sound, we both [...]
Posted in Grieving on Sep 4th, 2005 2 Comments »
I am not well, yet today may be the most restful day I’ve had in a long time. I am without children. Thomas is asleep and Bryan took Ruthie to church, so here I sit, in bed, in my pajamas, and it’s nearly 11am. I haven’t done this since Ruthie was an immobile baby. I [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving on Aug 3rd, 2005 No Comments »
The other night as I sat eating a bowl of vanilla ice cream with fresh peaches on top from the local farmer’s market, I was reminiscing of Gordy. He loved summer fruit, and he loved peaches with ice cream. I think blueberries were his favorite cereal topping, but for some reason as I sat there [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving on Feb 9th, 2005 No Comments »
I’ll be honest: resolution gives me writer’s block. As an introvert, I write to process through the fog in my mind. Once the wave has swelled and spilled over onto the beach I can think of nothing else to say. To recap how high the wave became, what kind of splash it produced, and how [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving, Seen, Heard, Said on Dec 29th, 2004 No Comments »
Just today I received word that the cancer in Gordy’s lung has continued to grow. It has taken over half the lung, his lymph nodes, and possibly spread into his liver. He is very weak, and according to my mom, Gordy says he feels like he’s dying. The doctors have narrowed his time with us [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving on Dec 27th, 2004 No Comments »
Have you ever felt like a sermon preached by a pastor was aimed right at you? That he spent all week thinking about you, your life, your issues, then said to himself, “I’m going to preach a sermon for her?” This morning’s sermon – preached by Pastor Mike — seemed particularly powerful to me. Again, [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving, Learning on Dec 16th, 2004 No Comments »
Before we decided to not hire a contractor to remodel our basement, we actually did hire the tall and loud contractor team that was in our home the night I found out Gordy had cancer. He was supposed to draw up the plans, submit them to the city for permitting, and get started on the [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving, Learning on Dec 10th, 2004 No Comments »
I had a team of contractors in my house when I found out the spot on Gordy’s lung was cancer. They were tall and loud and made my house seem small, but they liked my dog and thought my daughter was cute so we started off splendidly. I don’t think I ever suspected the spot [...]
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