Getting back into the Everyday…
May 2nd, 2008 by jenzug
Maybe it’s the fact that I’ve been sick forever, and have grown used to laying around and taking it easy.
Maybe it’s because it’s May, and I’m tired of seeing gray skies and using flannel sheets.
Maybe it’s because I’m so far behind in everything (due to being sick), that I’m feeling overwhelmed and morose.
I don’t know, but I can’t shake this funk. I’m finally feeling better physically, but I feel bored, unmotivated, and lonely – yet I’m not feeling social. I’m tired of these four walls, but I don’t want to go anywhere. I’m sick of this messy house, but I can’t bring myself to clean it. I’m tired of the chaos, but I can’t think to organize.
I have wasted hours this week, sitting in a chair, staring out the window, hitting refresh on Twitter, reading a book, watching t.v. – you name it.
Ugh. I’m kind of done with it. But yet, not really.
My doctor cleared me to go running on Monday, so I’m hoping that by getting back into my exercise routine I’ll be able to shake this funk. Here’s hoping.
Be warned: what you see here is not my best work. It is what Anne Lamott describes in Bird By Bird as a series of “shitty first drafts.” Blogging dragged me kicking and screaming out of creative constipation by getting me to actually write. So I do that. A lot. Without worrying about every word choice or comma placement.
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I had to begin reading through this post again. I was reading it the first time and got as far as ‘gray skies and flannel sheets’ and remembered that MY flannel sheets were still flappin’ in the wind on our clothesline and it was now dark outside!! So thanks for the unintended reminder or I would’ve had to truck out there to get them in my pj’s just as I was ready to fall in to bed!