My Life Changing Diapers
This post really struck a nerve with me. In fact, I’ll probably end up writing an entire blog post in reflection. I’m not sure how a selfish person like me was allowed to parent children, but I feel like 99% of my anger issues come from the frustration of not being able to do whatever the hell I want because of these meddling kids.
I absolutely do not feel called to have more children while Jesus works this out in me, but I definitely understand that my heart seeks to please itself at the cost of serving others. I think I’ve finally hit the bottom of myself and find this reality so gross that I’m this close to praying something drastic like, “Lord, please give me a heart that’s willing to serve others.”
All the churchy people in the room just gasped because they know I’ll soon be drinking service from the fire hose.
Coffee Drinks Illustrated
My personal favorite, other than a basic cup of black coffee, is the Espresso Macchiato. This is how a real Macchiato is made, and I hate it when a clueless barista makes me a giant cup of milk sweetened with caramel. Blech.
Percolator Flickr Group
I mentioned a couple weeks ago that I downloaded a new photo app called Percolator. This week I discovered a Percolator photo group on Flickr. Browsing here makes my brain happy when it can’t write technical scripts any more.
That post struck a nerve with me, too, in that I am soooo not that evolved. God gave me another baby while I was still figuring out that “Holy crap, having kids means less ‘me time’!” and it is absolutely a struggle to serve them, my husband, anyone else. I don’t know if I’ll ever get to the point where I don’t look forward to more autonomy, but instead forward to how I can serve others more. That seems practically against human nature… but obviously, that’s kind of the point.