Posted in Getting Things Done, Learning on Jan 18th, 2007 1 Comment »
(For Part I, go here.) When I was a kid I had an active imagination. I was as good as an only child since my brother graduated high school and left home when I was seven (which was also, I just realized, the year after my father left), so I created my own companionship in [...]
Posted in Learning, Ruthie on Jan 7th, 2007 3 Comments »
Posted in Learning on Dec 7th, 2006 4 Comments »
I stayed up late the other night writing about all the ways I was failing as a mother, and as a wife, and as a person; about my wretched, angry heart that is at war with everything; about how easy it is for me to despise. As I cried and wrote I felt myself spiraling [...]
Posted in Learning, On Writing on Dec 5th, 2006 No Comments »
I lived in New York for two years in the mid ninties, about 45 minutes North of Manhattan on the Hudson River. I lived there alone – as in, I didn’t bring any friends or family with me. I ventured out on my own to a new land. An opportunity opened up for me to [...]
Posted in Blog Stuff, Learning on Nov 22nd, 2006 No Comments »
This week has been a fun Thanksgiving preparation week, both on the hospitality front as well as the project-completion front (my basement looks pretty again!). Bryan and I are hosting seven adults and five children (including our own family) for dinner tomorrow afternoon, followed by an open invitation to hang out with us in the [...]
Posted in Learning on Nov 7th, 2006 4 Comments »
Today is election day, and every time this comes around I am faced with my own ridiculous apathy regarding anything political. I just don’t care. But lately I have been trying to make myself care, and not just to be hip, either. If I’m going to enter Recovery and spend an entire year turning myself [...]
Posted in Learning on Nov 6th, 2006 No Comments »
I don’t often write about things of faith and religion outside of my own personal journey. I am a Believer in Christ, so everything I do and say and believe and struggle with is filtered through this lens – though I try, very intentionally, to keep it as MY lens and not something I attempt [...]
Posted in Getting Things Done, Learning on Sep 13th, 2006 4 Comments »
I haven’t felt much like writing lately. Can you tell? This blog has taken a turn toward online photo journaling and reports of what I did yesterday, more akin to my journaling style of junior high. Many questions are in my mind, like… do I really have anything to say? Does anybody out there even [...]
Posted in Bryan, Getting Things Done, Learning, Living In Community, Video on Aug 9th, 2006 1 Comment »
Posted in Learning, Rage Against The Pile, Ruthie on Aug 8th, 2006 1 Comment »
Yesterday I saw my therapist and he TOTALLY validated me in my struggle with Ruthie. She is, officially, a Strong Willed Child (heretofore to be referred to as the SWC). She is the one people write books about, he says. She is the one I will often feel like giving away, he says. She is [...]
Posted in Learning on Aug 2nd, 2006 No Comments »
Last week on a complete whim, I ducked into a yoga class at the gym. I was on the treadmill feeling unmotivated, bored, and mentally distracted. I am always mentally distracted. I am thinking about what should have been, I am worried about the future, but very rarely am I focused on the moment. It [...]
Posted in Learning, Ruthie on Jul 17th, 2006 2 Comments »
It’s Monday morning, and thank the good Lord in heaven I don’t have to go anywhere today. When Ruthie starts school full time I’m screwed, because the one thing about motherhood that agrees with me is the part about not having to be anywhere in particular. Ruthie was in day camp last week, and by [...]
Posted in Bryan, Learning, Rage Against The Pile, Until Death Do Us Part (and to the Death it will be) on Jul 13th, 2006 2 Comments »
Last night I experienced the really icky feeling of getting busted in the act. You see, I can be really honest with my friends about what I do, I can relay a story to Bryan from the day, I can even blab about my issues on the internet – but I am still in control [...]
Posted in Getting Things Done, Learning, Rage Against The Pile on Jul 10th, 2006 3 Comments »
I know I keep bringing this up, but I can’t say it enough: I’M FEELING GREAT! As I look back on the last year of blog posts and remember this, and this, and this, and how angry and depressed and incapacitated I was, I thank God for bringing me through it. We have come full [...]
Posted in Friendship, Grieving, Learning, Zoe on Jul 4th, 2006 1 Comment »
Zoe was born on Sunday, a day earlier than expected. This brought the drama of a little panic and rushing, but in some ways I think this was better than the anxiety of waiting. She came into this world as healthy and as strong as our wishes and prayers had hoped for, needing no assistance [...]
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