Posted in Comfort & Control, Soundrack on Feb 16th, 2011 3 Comments »
I don’t think I’ve ever felt more at home in a song. It communicates a sentiment I’ve carried with me my whole life – even when I didn’t understand it. The more I grow in maturity, the more I appreciate the brokenness in the people around me. I have my favorite favorites. You know who [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Rage Against The Pile, Ruthie on Feb 9th, 2011 4 Comments »
Earlier this year Ruthie had an ongoing conflict with some kids on the school bus. She wanted to sit in the way back – in the last seat – but the older kids wouldn’t let her. If she claimed the back seat first, the older girls would kick her out. Sometimes she got off the [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control on Jan 28th, 2011 1 Comment »
I caught Ruthie in another lie today, that sneaky one. The kids don’t have school today (when DO they have school these days?!), and she’s been snuggled up in my bed watching cartoons – the benefits of being an early-rising daughter of a non-morning person mom. I walked in to sort some laundry and pick [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Depression, Rage Against The Pile, Soundrack on Jan 24th, 2011 4 Comments »
For more than ten years this song always seems to find me in my darkest hour. Whether I am depressed, wallowing, full of rage, or drenched in the stench of my own selfishness, the Truth in these words sets my heart straight. And it’s not just the words themselves, but the way in which I [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Depression, Everyday, Introspect on Dec 15th, 2010 1 Comment »
I’m a little crazed these days. I think I’ve had something on the calendar every night since the beginning of December, and that never goes over well with Introverts like me. I’ve definitely hit a wall. For me this looks like oversleeping, over eating, over drinking, and writing blog posts when I should be working [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Everyday, Until Death Do Us Part (and to the Death it will be) on Oct 18th, 2010 1 Comment »
There’s a running joke in the ZugHaus about spontaneity – I claim to have some when we all know I don’t. For the longest time I pegged Bryan as a curmudgeonly old man with no flexibility or zest for the spontaneous. I just wanted to run! Be free! See what the day held! But no, [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Rage Against The Pile on Oct 8th, 2010 No Comments »
After several volatile mornings followed by several volatile afternoons I had to regroup my wits and come up with a way to deal with Ruthie that didn’t involve me yelling at her. I’m really good at yelling – it’s a knee-jerk reaction to being yelled at, and I get yelled at a lot. I hate [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Introspect on Oct 1st, 2010 2 Comments »
The other day I slipped and fell in my basement. The whole area is carpeted except for, like, three feet at the bottom of the stairs, but that’s all the space I needed to fall on my ass. I slipped on a dog bone. One foot flew out in front of me, and the other [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Everyday on Aug 5th, 2010 1 Comment »
“DOH!” I’m co-hosting a baby shower tonight at a friend’s house. In the planning, I offered to create a hand made paper garland and bake a dessert, in addition to collecting up other various supplies and running errands for the event. What was I thinking? I didn’t create hand made paper garlands or bake desserts [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control on Jul 31st, 2010 1 Comment »
Tea Party Set By Ruthie I have arrived at that magical parenting phase where I rarely have to get up off the couch. The kids want breakfast? Well make some toast or get a cup of yogurt. Need a drink of water? Grab a stool and get the cup yourself. But this new independence is [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Everyday, Getting Things Done on Jul 4th, 2010 2 Comments »
There are better house cleaners than me. This is fact. I’m not in denial of it anymore, either. In fact, I wear this badge proudly. I see it as one of the benefits of approaching my 40′s – I really don’t care what you think about me anymore, because I know I’m awesome. And if [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Everyday on Jun 30th, 2010 1 Comment »
There are people in this world who go through life with very few regrets, and I’m not one of those people. My inability to make a decision or figure out what to do next paralyzes me, and I find myself under the constant pressure of wondering whether I should be doing something different than what [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Ruthie on Jun 27th, 2010 3 Comments »
We spent the afternoon at a craggy beach earlier this week, and the kids collected two buckets of white sea shells. Mostly they were broken and smooth from the waves and sand, but they were infinite in number – a true delight for the obsessed. Ruthie was focused that afternoon. While Thomas played in the [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Everyday on Jun 21st, 2010 1 Comment »
I just spent the entire evening doing nothing – something I long to do almost every minute of every day. The kitchen is a mess, the laundry is unfolded, the bounty from Costco is still piled up on the table. Yet? I sat in my chair all night… doing… nothing. And now that I’m moving [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Everyday, Until Death Do Us Part (and to the Death it will be), Video on Jun 18th, 2010 3 Comments »
Bryan played this video for me the other day and prefaced it with, “You’re going to be mad at me for about 5 seconds, but then you’re going to think it’s really funny.” I’ll admit I wanted to be mad, but I know myself too well – I embrace my inner Eeyore and live it [...]
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