My mom came to town on Monday, which also happened to be Ruthie’s birthday. I had big plans for her visit, and non of them included her doing my laundry, cleaning my kitchen, or taking out the trash. But because I am flat on my back, writhing in pain, this is exactly how she is spending her vacation – running my household.
I have minor back issues on and off, and visit the chiropractor every three months or so just to keep things in line. But this? This is a whole new issue in a whole new area of my back. I feel as if my vertibrae are grinding together. The muscles in my back are so tense they feel twitchy, and they are particularly tense around my lower lumbar region, which also makes me constipated.
I stretch. I twist. I flex. I take drugs. But I am never comfortable. I am most in pain when sitting or standing up, so lying down is what I do. I have never been so eager to accomplish mundane tasks in my life! I just want to put these towels away, for crying out loud, or fill the dishwasher and clean the kitchen. But in order to do those things I have to hold my breath and hunch over and grab a hold of something.
I can handle being sick, but I can not handle being in pain. I am highly discouraged and frustrated, and just want my normal life back where I can watch other people’s kids or help someone move. I don’t like this not getting anything done, this laying around while other people (like my 70+ year old mother) do my work for me.
I never thought I would say this, but I miss my job. Just goes to show you what a little perspective does to a natural born complainer.