Posted in Depression, Rage Against The Pile, Comfort & Control on Feb 20th, 2008 3 Comments »
I’ve had a really shitty couple of days. I wake up cranky, I drink too much coffee, my house is a disaster, I yell at my kids, and I’m behind on everything.
Shitty.
And I can’t say that I have any circumstances to blame this on. Yes, Bryan has been working a lot, and yes, we […]
Posted in Piling It On (and taking it off), Rage Against The Pile on Oct 12th, 2007 1 Comment »
Wow. Who knew? I am completely addicted to working out. I was talking to a friend last night about all the exercising I’ve been doing, and how my whole new daily routine has been fantastic, and how I’m actually accomplishing MORE even though I added an hour and a half to my day by […]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile on Oct 8th, 2007 No Comments »
Day One of new Staying On Track Schedule is complete, and I’m tuckered out. I was productive, I was not swayed by distractions, and it was kind of nice to move through the day with purpose: make grocery list, work out, fill crock pot with dinner, go to grocery store, scream immaturely at my […]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile, Comfort & Control on Sep 5th, 2007 No Comments »
I’ve been thinking a lot about the issue of habitual sin. We all have sinned, and we all will continue to sin until we are perfect in death with Christ. But we also have a responsibility to turn from our sin, to repent, and to stop doing it.
So what to make of these habitual […]
Posted in Ruthie, Rage Against The Pile on Sep 5th, 2007 1 Comment »
I just gave Ruthie a time out for ignoring me (a frequent happening in our relationship). After her time out, when I spoke to her about what she’d done, she seemed flippant and more concerned about getting back to Dora than she was about repenting and telling me she is sorry.
So I sent her […]
Posted in Until Death Do Us Part (and to the Death it will be), Learning, Rage Against The Pile on Apr 24th, 2007 3 Comments »
I have flown in a lot of airplanes in my life as my family has always been scattered around the country, and this particular instruction regarding the oxygen masks always confused me. For some reason I always thought it made more sense to help the person next to you first. Aside from the fact […]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile on Apr 2nd, 2007 1 Comment »
Bryan has slowly been making the switch in our household from PC’s to Macs, and my laptop PC was one of the last to be switched over. He finally ordered me a new one last week, and spent time this weekend setting it up for me. I’m excited about it, and love all […]
Posted in Ruthie, Learning, Rage Against The Pile on Mar 16th, 2007 5 Comments »
There are days when Ruthie teaches me many things. Like the days when she pretends to mother her purple teddy bear - feeding it, wrapping it in a blanket to sleep… and disciplining it. I often find her setting the bear in a nearby chair, cheerfully explaining to it the reasons for a time […]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile, On Writing on Mar 13th, 2007 5 Comments »
My babysitter is sick today (poor thing, she’s fighting something ugly), so I am without my afternoon of writing. I hate how this makes me feel, and I’m still trying to figure out how to deal with lost expectations. I’ve had many meaty things in my head this week, and I was really looking […]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile on Feb 28th, 2007 2 Comments »
This morning I ate my breakfast while locked in the bathroom because Ruthie would not stop bugging me about giving her a bite of my eggs. I kept asking her in a calm way to please back away (she was literally in my face, hovering over my plate, with her fork touching my food), […]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile on Feb 15th, 2007 3 Comments »
Lately I have been struggling with guilt and condemnation. We are working through Grace in our recovery group, so of course it draws up all the nasty reasons in my heart of why I shouldn’t be worthy of God’s grace. Today is a particularly bad day as I have struggled all week in […]
Posted in Ruthie, Rage Against The Pile on Nov 25th, 2006 No Comments »
The good news is, Ruthie is no longer screaming for half an hour when we put her to bed – a revolt that began after our camping trip in July.
JULY!
For some reason, after that trip she refused to go down without a fight, and every nap time and every bedtime included […]
Posted in Books, Depression, Getting Things Done, Rage Against The Pile on Nov 10th, 2006 3 Comments »
It’s interesting to me how many areas of my life are intersecting during this season – one of the side effects of so much introspection, I suppose. I’ve been reading a book that Kristin recommended, Writing from the Inside Out, by Dennis Palumbo. As a former Hollywood screenwriter and current psychotherapist, Palumbo has […]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile on Nov 9th, 2006 No Comments »
Monday was a bad day, and I knew it from the moment my ears opened to the sounds of my daughter crying when Bryan attempted to get her back to bed again at the crack of dawn. She would not have it. As a compromise, he let her sit in the recliner in […]
Posted in Rage Against The Pile on Nov 1st, 2006 3 Comments »
Ruthie is digressing. Or relapsing. Or rebelling. Or whatever you call it when a perfectly normal potty trained three-year-old starts pee-ing herself several times a day. Oh yeah. I’m angry. And I’m not just irritated-angry or inconvenienced-angry. I’M ANGRY. In fact I’m REALLY REALLY angry. I was already angry […]