Posted in Grieving on Sep 4th, 2005 2 Comments »
I am not well, yet today may be the most restful day I’ve had in a long time.
I am without children.
Thomas is asleep and Bryan took Ruthie to church, so here I sit, in bed, in my pajamas, and it’s nearly 11am. I haven’t done this since Ruthie was an immobile baby.
I feel decadent.
I [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving on Aug 3rd, 2005 No Comments »
The other night as I sat eating a bowl of vanilla ice cream with fresh peaches on top from the local farmer’s market, I was reminiscing of Gordy. He loved summer fruit, and he loved peaches with ice cream. I think blueberries were his favorite cereal topping, but for some reason as I [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving on Feb 9th, 2005 No Comments »
I’ll be honest: resolution gives me writer’s block.
As an introvert, I write to process through the fog in my mind. Once the wave has swelled and spilled over onto the beach I can think of nothing else to say. To recap how high the wave became, what kind of splash it produced, and [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving, Seen, Heard, Said on Dec 29th, 2004 No Comments »
Just today I received word that the cancer in Gordy’s lung has continued to grow. It has taken over half the lung, his lymph nodes, and possibly spread into his liver. He is very weak, and according to my mom, Gordy says he feels like he’s dying.
The doctors have narrowed his time with us down [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving on Dec 27th, 2004 No Comments »
Have you ever felt like a sermon preached by a pastor was aimed right at you?
That he spent all week thinking about you, your life, your issues, then said to himself, “I’m going to preach a sermon for her?”
This morning’s sermon – preached by Pastor Mike — seemed particularly powerful to me. Again, there’s a [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving, Learning on Dec 16th, 2004 No Comments »
Before we decided to not hire a contractor to remodel our basement, we actually did hire the tall and loud contractor team that was in our home the night I found out Gordy had cancer. He was supposed to draw up the plans, submit them to the city for permitting, and get started on the [...]
Posted in Gordon Lee Pearson, Grieving, Learning on Dec 10th, 2004 No Comments »
I had a team of contractors in my house when I found out the spot on Gordy’s lung was cancer. They were tall and loud and made my house seem small, but they liked my dog and thought my daughter was cute so we started off splendidly.
I don’t think I ever suspected the spot would [...]