Posted in Comfort & Control, Everyday on Nov 13th, 2007 2 Comments »
I’ve had a really shitty and stressful day already, and it’s only 10:30. Thing after Thing has happened, giving many reasons to complain about the injustice of Things not going my way - some legitimate, some not. I’m am failing miserably, today, at responding to these Things with grace and mercy.
Maybe I should [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Everyday on Nov 12th, 2007 2 Comments »
Last year on election day I turned a new leaf and made a new commitment to the democratic process. Having lived a life of apathy until that point, I felt challenged to care by people in my life that I respected. Not pressured by them, mind you, but internally challenged. I saw their example, [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control on Oct 28th, 2007 No Comments »
My kids have been outside playing for the last hour and a half - ever since we got home from church. Earlier this week I had to lock the doors to keep them outside, and now that they should be napping, I can’t bear to drag them in.
I have, in general, lacked this [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Learning on Oct 22nd, 2007 1 Comment »
Argh! One day of wearing really crappy shoes last week got me shin splints, and I’m mad. I thought resting for four days over the weekend would heal them, but I was still feeling pain this morning when I woke up. So instead of running, I lumbered along on the Monotonous Machine of [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control on Sep 24th, 2007 1 Comment »
Posted in Comfort & Control, Rage Against The Pile on Sep 5th, 2007 No Comments »
I’ve been thinking a lot about the issue of habitual sin. We all have sinned, and we all will continue to sin until we are perfect in death with Christ. But we also have a responsibility to turn from our sin, to repent, and to stop doing it.
So what to make of these habitual [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Learning on Aug 29th, 2007 1 Comment »
Why I ever thought it was a good idea to quit working out I will never know. Running (on the elliptical or otherwise) has always been a cathartic, meditative experience for me. In that space of breathing and following a rhythm I am more focused than at any other time, except maybe during the [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control on Aug 15th, 2007 3 Comments »
When I last saw my therapist we went over a self evaluation he’d previously given me. It was an inventory of spiritual and emotional maturity taken from the book, The Emotionally Healthy Church, by Peter Scazzero. Taking this test has shattered the fear and mystery surrounding one of my most embarrassing traits.
I talk about myself [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control, Depression on Jul 25th, 2007 2 Comments »
They say depression is anger turned inward, which likely explains the funk I’ve been in. I thought I was coming out of it a few weeks ago, but in retrospect I see it is more circumstantial - as in, if things go the way I want them to I’m happy, and if they don’t, I’m [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control on Jun 4th, 2007 2 Comments »
Scott Berkun is a local author friend of Bryan’s, whom I’ve met on several occasions at various tech gatherings. I am fascinated by his writing, because although he writes from a business perspective on topics such as project management, I always seem to find nuggets of truth in his essays that can be applied [...]
Posted in Comfort & Control on May 22nd, 2007 No Comments »
In an effort to keep up with the ever-changing Jen, I’m adding a new category called Comfort & Control. Having passed through seasons of depression (with more to come, I’m sure) and Rage (ditto), I find myself thinking through new struggles that don’t fit in either category (thankfully).
While at a conference this weekend (based [...]